Patience has never been one of my strong points.
However, lately my life has required an inordinate amount of patience.
During times like these, I find my mind starting to over think.
What needs to be done?
How can I do it?
Have I made the right decision?
Is it still the right decision?
On and on my brain goes. It comes up with so many questions and possibilities that I can’t shut it off.
I don’t know about you but I usually have to find something to calm my mind and/or get the thoughts off my chest, which in turn usually calms my mind.
So…it is times like this, I go to a handcrafted journal my grandmother gave me a couple of years ago. In the journal, I keep quotes and thoughts aimed at inspiring me. There are no stories from my childhood or even from today. There are only the thoughts I’ve had to help me think positively or the quotes i find that are inspiring to me personally.
Today, I went to the book looking for something specific.
Over the past many weeks, I’ve had to make a lot of decisions. Some were easy, some were not. Some had to be made by me alone and some included the parts of my family that were involved in the situations surrounding the decisions that needed to be made.
Although the decisions have been made, my mind wants to move forward towards whatever step is next. Unfortunately, that pesky little thing called patience is rearing its ugly head again. So I was very grateful for the following quote:
I will not lie and say that not thinking, not wondering, not imagining, not obsessing are going to be easy. The nice thing though is that breathing calmly is easy. The meditative breath I learned while taking a yoga class during college has often been a source of peace. Coupled with the faith I have that everything does work out in the end and for the best will get me through this.