Monday, Monday

 

Everyone knows that Monday can be an awful day.  It can be drudgery coming off of an amazing weekend.  It can be the day we dread for any number of reasons.

However, my Monday was really good.  My students came to school tired but excited to be there.  This made it so much easier to work with students I already care a lot about.  It made is easier because my Sunday didn’t end the same way it began.

Sunday was a hard day to get through.  I made it through because of my wonderful children that rode the horrible ride with me.  I made it through because of a whole lot of faith that I could.  I made it through because some wonderful people stopped by just when I needed them to.  They brought laughter and joy and celebration.  I couldn’t return to my previous thoughts and stresses with that kind of reception. I made it through because I couldn’t worry any more.

This made it easier for me to show up to school with the hope that my students and I would make beautiful music together…And WE DID!  They are making so much progress each day that I just can’t believe it.  They are literally taking everything I can give them and making it even better.  A teacher can’t ask for more than that.

Well…I could only hope for one other thing.  A possibility that started last Tuesday, manifested itself in all of its glory on Friday and came closer to reality today. It is a dream I have never shared with anyone.  It is not reality yet but I am hopeful that it can be.

Monday ended up being unlike most.  It didn’t contain any drudgery.  It left a lot of questions that can’t be answered right now, but it definitely left me feeling as though “it was all I hoped it could be”.

Blessings

I hope no one begrudged me the day off yesterday as it was Sunday.  I tell my students, I take one day off every week from doing ANY work even including their emails or Remind texts to me, and now I will include this blog as I see it as work albeit quite enjoyable work.  So this post was written Saturday evening.

I want to say THANK YOU.  I say thank you for a number of reasons.  First, This past week* has been an amazing ride!  *I’ve already written about my ‘bumpy’ ride since January but you can read that post later.

 

It was amazing because I am an introvert.  Once people get to know me and I feel comfortable around you, you forget how introverted I really am…because I can talk nonstop:0 However, I went so far out of my comfort zone this week in starting a blog that I’m almost surprised I did.  I will admit that when A.J. Juliani, in one of the videos from Innovative Teaching Academy, said one of our assignments was to start a blog, I almost did what I complain about others doing…I started to blub, to mutter, to come up with reasons I couldn’t do it and on and on.  I can’t really say why I stopped myself but something within me said to just suck it up and do it.  So I did.  

For me, this road has been almost cathartic.  It’s been an emotional roller coaster in a number of ways and for a number of reasons.  However, as much as I have worried about what to write and what to add to the website (there is still a lot I want to add) and have learned much through trial and error about putting together a website, I can say I have learned most about myself.

Despite being told by different people over the years, many who were family members, that I couldn’t do this or that because of this or that, I realized I can do just about anything if I put in the time and the effort and I truly believe in myself.  I tell my students to do this all the time.  However, I can’t say I completely believed it for myself.  My students are young, with endless possibilities and opportunities ahead of them. But I often feel I am limited.  Limited by my age, my size, my education (I’m not smart enough for some, too smart for others) and other numberless ideas I can think of.

However, there is really good song that truly sums up what it feels like to let go, do something new and even scary, and almost feel free for the first time…Defying Gravity.  I know, you though I would “Let it Go”.  That one is definitely good.  However, Defying Gravity is a song that I share a love of with many of my students.  Many have not been through, although too many might have too close a glimpse through their own experiences, what I have been through but I still think we can share the wonderful knowledge that we too can change and take charge of our own destinies.

“Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap!”

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